Dueling Worlds
crazy / depression / Home/Family Life / Love and Heartbreak / Work / writing

Dueling Worlds

Nobody told me it was going to be like this… Regular Working World: One in which I plod through, day to day, nodding and smiling in support towards colleagues and students and the occasional administrator. I teach, I answer questions, I grade papers, I question myself, I re-grade some papers, I teach some more, I … Continue reading

When Writing Truly Became My Therapy
crazy / depression / Love and Heartbreak / novels / writing

When Writing Truly Became My Therapy

I’ve been stagnant here, and for that—as well as my lack of participation in the blogging community—I’m sorry. I’d a single writing goal over the summer, and that was to FINALLY finish my horror novel, that beast that’s been keeping my mind and soul occupied when other things should have been. I’d promised myself it … Continue reading

I don’t need your idiom.
depression / Home/Family Life / Love and Heartbreak

I don’t need your idiom.

***** Every morning, right upon waking, I have a little routine. I check my fingertips, especially the fingernails. I know what you’re thinking. It’s peculiar. No, wait. That’s not what you’re thinking — You’re thinking it’s flat-out weird. I’m weird. But don’t we all have our own little rituals upon waking? Mine can’t be the … Continue reading

Horror Movies Reminding Me I’m Not Dead Yet
crazy / depression / Pop Culture

Horror Movies Reminding Me I’m Not Dead Yet

(WARNING: Significant plot spoilers for A Cure for Wellness & Get Out)   The pop culture gods are fucking with me right now. They often do anyway, but I’m not laughing at their message anymore. I’m watching; I’m paying close attention. I’m panicking. Lately, I’ve been questioning my own health, my own midlife crisis, desperate … Continue reading

Too Much Too Soon
depression / Home/Family Life / Sociopolitical crap / Uncategorized / Where I Live / Work

Too Much Too Soon

This time of year means stress upon stress. This time of year can take it the hell back. So many things happening all around that I can’t concentrate, can’t think about what comes next or how to get through it. My grandfather always said that things can only get better after they hit the breaking point (how … Continue reading